Love hurts...

Johnny and I got in a huge fight on Thursday night. It started with me getting upset that he was yet again going out with friends and staying out until really late at night. I had hardly seen him in the last couple days and it makes me feel like he doesn't care if we see each other or not. So when I got upset abut that he started to get defensive and upset with me. Well words were said and we didn't speak to each other the rest of the night and the next morning. At work on Friday I emailed me him a super long email about my feelings and what I had been observing in the relationship. He responded and apologized for his behavior and the things he said. He told me that he loved me so much and didn't want to lose me but that he is going through so many stressful things right now. I didn't see him all weekend until Sunday night because he didn't want to come see me since it's obviously more fun to hang out with his friends. I was a miserable wreck all weekend because I felt like our relationship was unraveling. I felt like there was nothing I could do to fix it and make it better. I felt how I did when things fell apart with my ex 2 years ago. I felt a little abandoned. So last night Johnny and I hung out but we didn't talk about the fight or anything. I didn't want to bring it up because we were having a good time and I don't want to seem like we always have to be talking about that. I really need to bring it up tonight though. And I need to ask him, "Do you have what it takes to make this work?", "Do you want to put the effort in?". I'm really close to being at the end of my rope. I can't keep giving 200% and getting about 30% back from him. I understand that he is going through some really difficult things right now but that doesn't mean that he can be lazy in our relationship. To me that says that he doesn't really want to be in it. I hate that I'm back at the same place in a relationship with someone totally different. Why don't I deserve to find someone who doesn't have major emotional issues and is able to love me the way I want to be loved?