Lost...

I don't know what to do. Johnny is so stressed out and depressed because he can't find a job and he has very little money. He is saying that he is going to go live with his mom for awhile because that will pressure him into finding a job sooner. He feels pressure from me and his BM (baby mom) to contribute monetarily. I get so upset when he spends his money on frivolous things when I am struggling to stay on my budget and pay my credit cards off. I don't understand where he thinks this relationship is. He doesn't think we live together and doesn't want to. He doesn't want my help with anything. He doesn't take my advice that I give him. I'm getting so depressed about it. He is always staying up late and coming to bed at 3 am unless we have sex which makes me feel like I only matter to him as a sex partner. Last night when he came to bed he was all cuddly with me and it was so sweet and then I realize that it's probably only because he wants sex. I hate that feeling. Maybe it will be good if he goes and lives with his mom for awhile. Maybe the week that I'm housesitting will be good for us to be apart. I don't think he is trying as hard as he can. He's putting abot 70% effort into finding a job and saving his money. He thinks he is giving 100% but I can list about 10 things he could be doing that he isn't. I'm afraid that he is going to go to some other girl. One who he can escape with and forget his problems. One who he has no responsibilities to and doesn't pressure him about a job and money. I just want to shut down and crawl in a hole. I feel lost. Everything is out of control and slipping away from me. The more I grasp at it the farther away it goes.